i do i don't

tensi, murung, tertekan, suram, itu yg aku rase skang. aku mmg suke mencarut. kalau aku marah mcm2 keluar dr mulut aku. and you, if you're reading this, keep reading. this post is for you to read. aku kalau marah kau kalau boleh aku nak bg kau sakit hati blik. sbab aku jauh lg sakit. kau xtau macam mane rase nye. sebab tu kau boleh buat kat aku. aku tgh lmbat nak pg klas kau msg2 aku, miscall2 aku sampai aku blas. contoh perbualan:

aku: kejap kejap, da lmbat nih nk gi klas nih, japgi call.
kau: ala kejap la nak ckp nih.
aku: msj la senang. *letak*
(kau call blik)
aku: kejap lew(begegas kemas barang)
kau: alaa awk nih biler tah nak ade mase ngan saye.
(pdhal mlm td da msj, pastu aku baru bgn tido, trus siap gi klas, da lmbat)

then kau call lg, kau msg byk2, kau call lagi, kau msg byk2, ape yg penting sgt kau nak ckp?? pdhal nak ckp bende mengarut, asalkan aku layan kau, bg kau puas hati.

biler kat kolej, penat, panas, rimas, same jugak, kau call, msg2, smpai aku layan. dgr mcm kat dlm kelas baru kau letak. kalau tak mesti kau ckp "tak habes2 ngan mbr!!" butoh. abes aku kat kolej nak lepak ngan sape? pompuan yg kau da kenal, yg kau penah tegur kat myspace dan yg kau tau aku xmungkin ade pape ngan die pon kau tuduh. kau xpecaya kat aku.

kdang2 kite baru lepas keluar, pastu mlm tu aku lepak ngan mbr aku, pun kau akan ckp "tak habes2 ngan mbr!!" butoh. biler begaduh dlm phone, betekak je mesti kau kalah, kau xpenah nak bgtau ape salah aku, sebab aku xbuat salah, sebab tak layan kau kau nak crik point nak gaduh ngan aku.

da lame beb mcm nih. aku da bg kau chance supaya kau tak buat lg. kau janji. tp kau buat jgak. kali ni mmg aku panas, aku terasa nak tumbuk muke kau, nak bunuh kau, so aku bebas dr kau, aku da xnak teseksa, lg satu, kalau aku xde kau cal mbr2 aku! pukimak! kau tau x tindakan kau tu akan menyebabkan orang xsuke kat kau!! aku pon da benci nak mampos kat kau. sebab tu aku maki hamun kau ngn family kau supaya nanti kau benci aku! kau nak break dgn aku! tp aku xpuas hati. seksa jiwa raga aku lg byk. lg pedih! nak pecah dada aku sebab xtahan perangai kau yg mendesak gila babi! aku xpenah jumpe orang mcm kau! kau call mbr aku berpuluh2 kali. fon aku xyah ckp ar, rekod paling byk 101 miscall dlm mase 3-4 jam. omg! can u just give me some fucking room?! some space for me!!?

bnyak lg bende aku xpuas hati dgn kau tp aku xdpt nak pk skang. sial lah.




surviving

my parents were at new zealand. hurmm. its quite hard when u have to survive in the house without them. i have to wash my clothes, cook, do the dish, clean the house, do the trash, water the plants, feed atiqah, check the light before i go to class, and so much more. and money is the problem. before they left, i gave all my money in my saving account to my mom. after they left i was like"whut!? why!? why!?". lol. really. i miss them. i told my mom to buy an xbox 360 at nz. though i know they'll never will. huhu. and mann atiqah have been so kind to me. she sleeps beside me often. ooooooo. it sounds so wrong isn't it. hahah. im at class rite now. and i have rm0 with me. well one of my friend owe me rm130. so im gonna work with that. its not easy to ask our friends to pay for the money we have lent. like "dude, can u pay me my money. i need it bitch."jus kidding. lmao. good day.

new roommate



finally i owned this guitar!


and this also

SHOW OFF! HAHA


this is atiqah


alololo


she eats human brain

neway, im still feeling sorry about chucker, abul's cat

fuck

jgn jadi malas!
fuck!

comeback dude!

wow a new post! dayyum. well who cares. lot of things changes time through time.
i've cut my hair, bought a new guitar and amplifier, epiphone sg special II black and roland micro cube,which i wanted to own those things since i was born. now that i owned it, i'll, u know, take care of it. and make use of it. i also bought a new shoe. macbeth, the jackson. old line up. i know. who fucking cares? its comfy as fuck. i wanted to get a wallister, but maybe next time. i want an ipod touch! but.adoiyai, membazir. low down the price la apple fuckintosh.